Tomorrow! I'm so excited! Tomorrow I get to embark on my 12ish hour journey to Pensacola, Florida! I am absolutely thrilled about this, because I have not seen the boy in three weeks! Which, in comparison, isn't nearly as bad as going three months, but it is still way too long for me. I'm a bit worried about the drive, especially after a full day of classes, but I don't plan on leaving until later in the day, so hopefully, I'll have time to pack and get a nap in before I leave.
I'm going to get this out of the way before anybody ever tries to throw this at me. I don't want anybody to feel bad for me. I don't need nor want your sympathy or your pity. I was not forced into this. I jumped right in with Cody and I'm happy where we are. I'm not here to get your attention and make you feel bad for all the military sig o's out there. I'm just sharing my story, which includes both good days and less than perfect days.
At this point in time, I don't think there is anything I need more than some quality Cody time. School is just getting started and I already feel like I've been here forever. The reading and homework just piles up and piles up. I feel like my first tests are right around the corner and we haven't learned anything yet! Getting out of Tulsa and seeing the boy is perfect. I'm dragging him to the beach, leaving the books at the hotel (yes, I'm taking them to Florida, bummer), and just doing nothing for at least a couple hours.
Right now, Cody and I are good. We have fallen into a routine with school starting which has made a huge difference in how I am dealing with things. Our schedules are fairly similar and they allow us to talk to each other on a some what regular basis. There are days though where everything goes right down the drain. Those are the days were the boy is busy with his studying and I have 18 different things going on and we can't for the life of us get on the same page for even a moment. Those days. Those are the ones where I feel like I'm losing it. It seems as though it's never going to be okay and Cody is never around and it just builds up and up. Like I said, less than perfect days. I got lucky though. It might take him a little while, but Cody generally figures out when I need extra attention (yes, I'm like a puppy) and humors me with Skype, FaceTime, etc. Without that, I would probably already be a melted pile of Stephanie on the floor that Becca would have to deal with.
Before I leave for Florida, I am going to be deactivating my Facebook account. This was something I attempted to do before, but it did not work for long because of some FaceTime issues. I have no idea how long I will be gone, but I am going to be spending this weekend with Cody Facebook free. I could be back Monday evening, or after Christmas. If you want to keep up with me, check back here regularly (I have some pretty crazy things on the calender, you don't want to miss that), or email me at stephanie-voss@utulsa.edu!
Next stop, PENSACOLA!!!
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